Being matured on X-mas day is indeed less expectation than being young and innocent. I always cry on X-mas day before. One expectation failed, would cause so much pain to me. I always miss my papa, brod and sist on the said occasion, sometimes they can't visit me in the province where me and my adopted mother just usually celebrate on our own. I keep waiting whoever gave me gift which sometimes never happen and that cause me frustrated.It makes me lonely when i don't received x-mas card especially from my secret crush. I get angry when mom won't allow me to go disco on the nearby place, knowing everybody's having fun and me just left in the corner. Now i realized all of this are just being immature.In fact you don't have to have everything you wanted just to be happy on X-mas day. Being an overseas worker in Brunei, you can just sleep in your room and be happy, contented that at least you are still breathing.Thats actually happens to me 7years ago. I don't have so much acquaintance yet that time, thats why nobody remember to invite me. Now my heart is like made of stone, any special occasion, as long as me and my family out there are healthy and peaceful for me thats the greatest gift of all. This year i celebrate it in a very simple way, me and my partner started with a sight seeing at NBT Gadong, amazing X-mas decor,its been 3yrs now that they consistently did a good job.A dinner party at Boss Orlan's place followed. Not all of the gang is there especially ate Che, but at least we still manage to have fun and celebrate the spirit of X-mas.Thats it and go to church the next day....
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